By now I'm confident you've heard about the many different opportunities we've all had to serve here with Living Hope. You've heard about the kids/teens clubs (and about how cute and adorable the little guys are), the painting jobs we mastered, the home health care stories from the nursing students, and you may have heard about all the fun little trips we've taken. By now, you're all preparing 1,000 questions to ask us as we set our feet back on the beautiful American soil we call "home", so I'm not going to describe our last days, that will be something for you ask us about in person.
What I will discuss is what I have learned here. I'll share with you all my struggles, my victories, and what I hope to bring back to my life in Delaware.
It may shock you read this, but I'm not especially skilled when it comes to dealing with small children. I'm not very confident in my abilities to win over a child's affection. However, I also learned that I lack patients in dealing with small children. After the first couple days of roasting in the sun in Overcome for the holiday clubs, my neck was a little sensitive to all the little finger nails digging into it. I knew my attitude needed to change if I was going to make it another day without going crazy. I needed a Christ-like attitude. No, I needed to BE Christ to those kids. To be a Christian is to be a keyhole for non-Christians to see Christ through. My bitterness was not giving these kids a good image of Christ at all. So I reasoned that if Jesus could come down from His throne of honor and glory and present Himself as a servant to mankind only to be crucified for it, I could suffer through a sun-burnt neck and a little clawing.
That was just the first week. From there I feel like I learned so much about what faith I thought I had. It turns out I am not one who lives by faith, and it really bothers me! We heard stories of people being called to ministry without any resources by which to do it, yet here they are. We heard stories of entire churches being built without having more than a penny to pay for it. We heard stories of a simple road trip from England to South Africa turning into a decision to stay in Capetown permanently by the time they hit Egypt. People here have such a dependence on God, and they see Him working in their lives daily. I found myself wondering why I don't have very many stories like that in my own life. Then it occurred to me, I'm not giving God any room to work in my life. Everything I do is very safe and logical. I do not live my the risk-taking faith that is required for meeting God. I asked myself if I could give up everything I hold closest to my heart if that was what God wanted. That is, can I give up my desire for a wife, a family, a nice home, a nice job, good health, etc. if it were God's will and calling that I not have any of that? And my answer can not be an honest yes...yet.
So now we've chipped off the chip of the iceberg that has been my internal conflict with my spiritual life and how I feel about it. These are not feelings that are exclusive to myself, I'm sure you can find very similar feelings from a number of other people on the team. You'll just have to ask them about it.
Moving on. Yes, today is our last day of waking up to a beautiful beach and amazing weather. It's our last day of driving on the "wrong" side of the road. It's our/my last day of not having to cook for myself. But rather than think about our time here being over and going back to the states to our lives, I would rather think of this return to the states as being our moving on to our next mission field. Our work here is done, but I think our work back home is just beginning. It's easy for me to say this since I'm not coming home to an overloaded school schedule (I'm done with school woot woot). But I think I can speak for everyone when I say that we want this experience to change our lives. We've met Christ here face to face. We came here with the idea that we would be helping these people, but now we feel as if we've received so much more than we're given. We want to be able to give that back.
Looking ahead, some of you will be seeing us in just a day or so. Yes, we'll have all kinds of stories to tell you. Yes, we'll have many pictures to show you. Yes, we'll be able to tell you about all the fun we've had. But this trip has meant so much more to us than a mere "good time". It will be very difficult for us to tell you everything about the trip and what we learned along the way. My challenge for you is to challenge us. Ask us how we're sharing Christ with those around us. Ask us what kind of Christ-like example we're being to those we see everyday. Ask us what risks we're taking for Christ. This is my challenge to you. This is my plea. Don't let us forget what we've learned. Don't let us forget South Africa.
Be Blessed. Be Cool. Keep it Real. Love Ya all.
-Eric
P.S. sorry for any grammatical errors/misspelled words. grammar and spelling aren't really priorities right now.